So today was a very strange day. As the children have been staying with their Grandparents all week, I decided that today I felt like going shopping and spoiling myself somewhat. So I did. I bought alot of new stuff for running. A new cute little pink backpack/rucksack for running, some new Nike+ trainers for my Nike+iPod kit, some new running tops, a new water bottle. I also bought girly things such as trousers, undies and shoes…..

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So yesterday I was supposed to see Mamma Mia with Maisie, but I didn’t because it had sold out. The weather was gorgeous and so we decided to sit in a beer garden instead and chat about recent events in our lives I told Maisie about Mr E. Just said there was a guy and I may or may not have had a certain pic of a certain body part of his on my phone. She was shocked, but laughed. On Maisie’s turn, we chatted about Maisie being dumped by one of her two boyfriends. Long story. Yaaaaaaaawwwwnnnn!!

In any case, telling Maisie AGAIN why it’s not good karma to have two boyfriends gets tedious so I was glad when it was time for Cinderella to go home. Maisie told me she wished she could be more like me, and if she could be like anyone in the world it would be me. She told me she hates when I don’t ‘open up’ to her because it makes her feel that she is not considered a real friend. I gave her a hug and told her that she is the closest thing to a best friend someone like me can have. She seemed happy with this thought and I waved goodbye until today when I was going to meet her again to watch Mamma Mia! with pre-booked tickets this time.

Got home at nearly 12, and went to bed. I’d had some wine, so drank two pints of water before going to sleep. Couldn’t sleep as it turned out, text Mr E a few times and then headed out for a run at 2 am. Exhilirating!

Today has been good. The weather was hot again and I headed for a run down to the local gym. I wore my running skirt, I looked uber slim and pretty damn sexy if I say so myself and was happy to be in the fresh air. Louie was at the gym and he was more normal today, which was nice. At the desk, the man found it funny that I had run to the gym and he asked me if I’d eaten a large dinner and was running it off? I told him no, that I was ‘running off’ my broken heart. I told him Mr Ex had left me. When I was running on the treadmill he came and told me that Mr Ex must be mad. I must agree.

Met Maisie at the usual time (!!) and watched the movie. It was OK, well it was good, but not great. Not as good as all the hype, I didn’t think, but still good. Maisie spoke to me again about her situation with the two boyfriends, and again made it out like it was the boyfriends’ faults. I must admit my patience wore thin and I snapped at her, stating that the situation was definitely her fault and that she should take some responsibility and accept that she needs to make a decision. The “safe, but annoying bet” or the “flaky love of her life”.

I don’t think Maisie liked my honesty, and she rebounded at me with some “home truths” about Mr E. She told me that I had the same impulses as her but that I was too scared to act on them and that’s why Mr E and I only talk in texts and on messenger. I told her she was being daft. She told me that I was a coward and she would rather have a real encounter with a real man than to live in a frigid world where the closest you come to human contact is words on a screen. I thought that what I do with Mr E is my own business and especially as she knows nothing about it, she should leave me alone. If I want to hide away in my solitude I bloody well will and there’s nothing she can do about it.

Came home with a splitting headache and here I am. Must sleep. I wonder if I should ask Mr E if he thinks I’m a frigid old bat who can’t have a human physical contact connection? In any case, he’s away tonight watching The Dark Knight and I shouldn’t think he’ll be ‘around’ tomorrow as I think he told me earlier he booked the day off. I think I’ll just sort things with Maisie and keep it to myself. Must sleep!!